Final Message

I have tried absolutely everything to prove my worth and humanity to the world. I begged for help and every single door is continuously slammed in my face. Nobody can nor will do anything to help me even in the slightest for fear of retribution for doing the right thing.

I have absolutely no friends, family nor acquaintances. I must die even after years of people trying to keep me propped up and surviving to see justice served. My death and suffering has been the edict from the very beginning. Years of advocacy by so many have been worthless. Years of evidence and investigations have been worthless. Hundreds of thousands of taxpayer dollars wasted so that human traffickers can be free.

I have spent so much of my own time, effort and money trying to get justice and see the children free but I am told to just die already. Just kill yourself. We won’t stop you. We’ll even help you. Just die already.

I have tried to kill myself so many times that everyone knows that it’s impossible. I have too much faith in God, humanity and justice even as humanity screams for my death and justice seeks to destroy me.

This website and absolutely everything else is pointless and will forever remain so. The FBI has all of my data. They copy my devices frequently enough. They don’t need anything from me. There are no statues of limitations for human trafficking and murder. If they ever want to pursue justice, they have everything necessary.

The public just won’t be privy to my demise nor the constant suffering and denial of my basic human rights and dignity. I am just one of many victims of our American genocide. If you thought that I might be allowed to survive or see justice, thank you for your optimism and hope. I wish you well.

I have to disappear somehow, some way. I have absolutely no chance of surviving here. The FBI has been investigating and amassing tons of evidence from the beginning but hasn’t completed their investigations. I can almost guarantee you that the FBI has intervened on my behalf numerous times and been told no numerous times.

All refuse to make any exceptions or allowances that might benefit me but will do everything possible to harm me. I could jaywalk with city leaders and nobody would bat an eyelash as I am the only person fined by police. I could argue but everyone including the child who witnessed it would have to gaslight me or walk away for their own safety and wellbeing.

This website has a bill due in November. I could easily pay it and live the lie that I will see justice and freedom. I could pretend that I could advocate for anyone but nobody will allow it. I could keep pretending but it only harms me. I refuse to listen to those who keep believing that this town will allow me to live or see justice. So many say that they have my back but when I face the bullets head on, they are nowhere to be found. I can’t keep doing this alone with all watching me suffer.

I will find a way to get enough money and health to escape alone without anyone’s help. I will start over even if I’m in a homeless shelter or refugee camp anywhere else on earth. Maybe those people will actually help me instead of watching me die with delight. Maybe we can build a life of mutual respect, understanding and peace. A place of prosperity and freedom for all. I always thought that this was that place, it’s still America, land of the free because of the brave, but the abundance of evidence says otherwise.

While I and this website disappear, know that I appreciate those who have tried to help me instead of harming me in any way, even if you only hoped for better days. I wish you all the best. I am sorry that I have failed absolutely everyone. I tried my best but my best wasn’t good enough.

I am beyond shattered, destroyed and alone but I’m still Daddy’s little soldier. I march forward and pray for the honorable death I was denied. I told you that it was more humane to shoot me like the rabid dog you created. It’s too late now. I pray for any death as quickly as possible. I still welcome you shooting me though. My reflexes are improving so make it a sniper. I try to stand down but you never know when a soldier will snap. I’m the only person who must die. Me alone. The people have spoken.