Silent Complicity

I have come to realize exactly what I have been doing and why I refuse to continue. Absolutely everything that I have said and done has been me trying to prove my humanity and worth to those who will never admit it. I refuse to participate in my own abuse. I have tried to make peace. I have tried to turn the other cheek. The abuse and denial have only grown stronger.

The authorities refuse to speak. They just watch as I am forced to interact with those who have harmed me in various ways. They watch as people say that I must be crazy or a liar. They deny my humanity, my existence and my truth with every moment of silence. I have been repeatedly denied my most basic human rights under the Constitution by absolutely every agency and institution in this country. As Em raps, I am whatever you say I am. Your silence is complicit denial of my existence.

Since I don’t exist, I can do nothing. I can’t volunteer. I can’t help. I can’t work. I can’t laugh. I can’t entertain. I am simply Anne Frank writing in my diary. Dreaming of a non existent future. Pretending that my humanity will be seen. Pretending that I’m not going to be taken to be exterminated. Pretending that the world cares.

Your silence is complicit denial of my existence, human rights and dignity. Since we are all the same, you deny yourself but logic doesn’t co-exist with hate. Hate simply demands the impossible. We are forced to bow down in compliance to it. I have been repeatedly broken and mended from it. The world remains silently complicit.

I don’t exist.

You have read this and still remain silent. You have proven that I don’t exist.